its nt the right way man.
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i was reading arsenal's action blog and arsene wenger's decision kind of disappoints me. letting toure go is already a mistake. and i see the fans scolding and swearing him, he has disappoint the arsenal fans, no doubts. i hope he has some concrete plans or intentionsin mind. he better have.

anyw my new blog link is tanpeini.wordpress.com.
its nothing is particular, just some personal random stuffs. HAH.
but PERFECT-NEOLITHIC.BLOGSPOT.COM is staying!

hahahaahahahahahah!


stay tuned. (:

the time never stops.
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HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY RITA!

dined at Sakae and seriously, i doubt i'll visit that outlet ever again unless its really neccessary.
the service there isnt very good. but to be honest, we were too noisy also already la. i can understand how they feel, being a service crew also. so i dont blame them. heh.

but we always face probs when settling the bill. and this is nt the first time! tsk. and thanks cowen for settling the rest of the amount for us. it is nt little leyyyy. thanks many eh! (:

i hate blogger! i cnt load any pictures AGAIN. damn. grab it on facebook instead than peops. HAH!

i got to do my ppt later tonight. tmr is the presentation and today is the first time i see the report. i think i got to rush it out thru the night again. tsktsktsk!

and i dropped by at cartel just now cos Elvin called me up and he was there. and he said that there is a new uniform, i wonder how different it'll be lor. and poisiew says she will give my full shift on National day! 1.5 pay! yay! (:


till later.

its a cross junction
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im done setting up another blog. its was faster than i expected i would take. and its way better than blogger, i think. though blogger is much more user-friendly. after its better den i'll let everyone know abt the switch.

but on second thoughts, i think im staying here as well. blogging on both sides maybe. but that will be more personal and totally random and LOL stuffs so dont click unless you really have to. HAH!

(:

good night

and its hard to be reciprocating.
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i missed school today. overslept, you see.

alright, i have the urge to blog, but i've gt nth in particular that i want to say.
oh well, i thought of switching my host for blogging. nt blogger anymore maybe, cause its giving me too much problems. but i think i'll suck at operating the other hosts, like how i wanted to switch to livejournal some time ago and i din how to really use it. :x

sister is sick and she has to do Olevel oral tmr. poor thing! and im staying up to take care of her. she needs to take med at 1am later.


sch's in tmr, no more excuses!




You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare,
Either way i, dont wanna wake up from you.

weekends craze.
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weekend was kinda nice. had a great sleep. slept till too late that i was late meeting the rest. but luckily, brian was even more late than me.(he promised me that he will be early though. tsk) heh. and i thought i would know the way there but i ended up not knowing and it was brian, suprisingly, who brought us there. LOL!

Some quality time spent at kel's hse. HEH. and left at ard 6pm. cos elvin was tired. so jimmy, brian and i went to catch a movie.saw many (ex)cartel colleagues on the way. how nice!(: went to the arcade first den had dinner at amk hub at idk whr.
jimmy is damn irritating, imitating all the chracters in PnM. and he is good at imitating them, you know.
and we caught MURDERER. it is nice, i think, though it is only rated one *.
a lil scary, a lil thrilling, a lil puzzling, with the always so handsome arron kok starring, its good. HAH!
and i kinda screamed a lil at some parts, and the-so-nice jimmy laughed at me la. -.-
everything was good, just that the theatre was far too cold.

work today was enjoyable. kind of.


and i had double dinner today. first one at cartel w jon and gx. chix and fish combo is nice! 2nd one w family. joined them after work.
so much of wanting to lose weight huh. tsk!


okay, im nt going sch tmr. maybe. damn.

byebye.

Ten million dollar smile
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i've complained that im damn tired just now and now its almost 2am and im still online. how ironic.

great news for me! i've finally got a pay rise and its starting next month. Major :D :D :D after sooooo long ley. recognition for learning 2/3 things of the counter stuffs.
YAY!

work was easy today though its a fri. and i did B2 today and it really isnt easy. tsk.

okayyyy, my mind is kind of blank now. i think its the way my body is telling me that i need to sleep now. and i dont want to be the late one tmr. i want to reach earlier than brian does. HAH!



very goodnight.

Tonight i've fallen
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IM SO FUCKING TIRED!

and i swear if there is anywhere that i can rest my head on, i'll sleep dead.
and i still have such a long day ahead, working till 11pm later.
and im glad i din stay up ytd to study for ICTS test cos i pass it even when i din study. HAH. if nt i'll be worse than shag.
and so nt much of TGIF, but im looking forward to saturday instead. i hope i know the way there, if nt i think angie, brian and elvin is gonna kill me. :x


i think im lucky. maybe luckier than some.
i came to terms ytd and im really appreciative for it.
b'cos i have something that i keep for life, something called memories.
i really think i was silly, being so emotional over something that i should be happy about.
but sometimes i really love myself, like the way i can feel so satisfied now. HEH. (:

sch is so nt fun.

Im lucky to have been where i have been
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hello all! Im back in blogging. blogger gave me some problems and it made me lose my blogging mood. heh.

well, i skipped sch yesterday and i had my sleep till like late afternoon. damn nice, seriously.
and i spent my whole day slacking around at home doing nothing. i love lazy afternoons. (:

and today i skipped FnY lecture again, apparently to watch obsessed ( which was supposed to be watched with Bok(s) on wed but i din go sch in the end) but it was not on screen yet! damn it. today was supposedly be the release date leyyyyyy. tsktsk.so we went to have lunch at Pizza hut and then desserts at swensons. NICE!
and then we shopped ard and the rest went home, and me and liting went SHC to shop first while waiting for alvin. and we bought gt sth for ourselves. nice nice! and had dinner at astons and talked many there.

and deju va! the same place, the same alfresco, the same ambience, the same food, all makes me so nostalgic.
and i recall the time when we ate there and talked many( till the staffs have to hurry us to settle the bill.) and when you walk me home. Chatting about almost anything and everything from your once-again-single hood to the unknown future, in front of the beautiful starry sky+ cooling sea scenery for hours till late midnight when you had to work the next day. how nice! i miss the times as i recall. more of these please, its nice. and get better working time slot and be less tired kay so that there will be more dinners. heh.

okay, there is so much to be done. ICTS test followed by marketing presentation den work. nong nong day ahead. and i need rest badly. start on them or just go to bed? oh shucks.

good night people.

it takes time to see who's real.
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i was so wrong. i take back what i said in the previous post, about being disappointed in guys and the losing of trust. i dint, i misunderstood you. but im glad things are clear now after some serious thoughts.

i believe you are who you always were. and you dint change. i was so silly to think so much. so silly. its all okay now, now that i know th truth. i knew it all along, din i? so the more i shouldnt doubt. im sorry for the wrong accusations that you are nt guilty for. sorry eh.

p/s: im still waiting for the update you owe me. the one that you said abt the similar politics prob at your workplace now and with the previous. and you're tmp now. baristar ley. HEHEHE! one pig only :P

and Harry potter bores me. :X

the truth hurts and lies worse
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so much of emotions rushing through me now. so much, too much that i can barely continue with what i was doing. i shouldnt have found out, be it delibrately or by accident. i should have stopped myself from that click. and now, its causing me all these emotions.

i guess i was wrong. so wrong all these while.


i dont know what to believe now. you said before that i dont have to crack my brains and think so hard, if i ask, you'll say right. so tell me now. did you even meant what you say, at any point of time. can i believe what you say, even as a memory.

What a joke now.

i feel so disguisted, by the nature of man. i've lost all the trust that i'd supposed to have.
i can only get better after i get over it. i know.
thanks all the factors that are trying so hard. i can see the other doors opened, just give me some time so that i step into the right one.

i know they were not the same
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Tmr is EFMA ica and here i am, making myself so gaga over some random stuff that someone said.
but its so similiar and i swear. it was almost the exact same words. WTH.

and it made me reminded of him, the him that i was trying not to recall.
was it that its just the thoughts of all guys or was it just plain coincidence that they happen to think alike?
i got reminded of. this sucks seriously.
are they stereotyping or they really think this is good for me. i wonder.
(liting knows what happened)

Bullshits.

i've lost all the mood to study now. screw me.


p/s: and i talked to J. he's nt the same anymore. and maybe he was right, we all have changed.

No more talk of why cant that be me.
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i slept my fill, finally and im so contented with it. after all the toll over projects, im glad its all over.
im planning to work more, since my wish of striking the lottery din come true, i'd better start working.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZIWEI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIXUAN!


bye folks.

i miss the way you used to msn me everyday when you're in school and im at work. i miss the way we used to bet on soccer together. i miss the way you how you celebrated my birthday though its something simple. i miss the way we watched movies impromtu-ly. i miss the way you carried my bag for me. i miss the way you always hold my neck. i miss the way how you lent your shoulder to me. i miss the way we sat and listen to your mp3, not doing anything. i miss the way you sent me home. i miss the way you helped me with my projects. i miss the way how you came to my hse just to suprise me. i miss the way you report that you are safe after the car accident to me. i miss the way you taught me desserts and drinks. i miss the way you called me for late night chats. i miss the way we always had supper. i miss the way you text me, before and after your work. i miss the way you cared for me. i miss the way i accompanied you to the doctor. i miss the way you remind me to drink the tea everyday. i miss the way you teased me pig. i miss the way we talked many about everything. i miss the way how you trusted me. i miss the way you poke my fats.i miss the way how we get along. i miss you. i do.

its finally over
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internet connection has been giving me problems and thus the hiatus past few days.
i recieved message to ask if im still alive so i need to say, im still kicking. hahaha.

these few days have been real busy, with projects.
fny report, ICTS and marketing proposal make us lose so much sleep. ):
but good thing that its all over.

thursday was DAPHNE'S BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BOK! :D
we went for dinner to celebrate and we bought her present last min cos we were quite busy with projs.
hope she like it ahh. and cheryl's cake damn niceeeeeeee! i like!

but i din stayed long cos i got dental appointment. and and sth major happened to my tooth.
and i might need to sth major to it. ): damnit. and i was not supposed to eat anything one but i still did anyway. i hope there is a permanent solution to it.

okay, here comes my rantings:
WTF seriously. ask your friend to back you up when you are in wrong and dont even dare to speak a word, hiding behind like some cowards. if we are bitches, then you are fking pussies. want to look for me for apology somemore, fuck you. comeon stop your barkings and stop acting you are not wrong. STFU.

just some free rider but its okay, i got an A anyway. (:

i finally can get some sleep today. good sleep i mean.

TGIF, maybe not.


p.s: let me strike the lottery this week. i need money.

its either all or nothing.
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i seriously need better time management, i cant be possibly always rushing out project only at the last minute before the datelines, losing precious sleeping hours. FnY and marketing proj due this week, in line with ICTS ica, daph's bday celebration, wx's bday celebration (if im gg) and my dental appointment.
tsk, if only have 30hrs a day.

i have these prominent eye bags growing under my eye already. ):

beep beep oh look now, there goes my phone,
and once again im just hoping its a text from you.
it aint right i read your mesages twice, thrice four times a night.
its true.
everyday i patiently wait
feeling like a fool but i do anyway.

maybe.

i feel like swearing. nothing is making me feel good now.

i hate doing projects, last minute. oh fick fack fuck.

Never though it'd catch me
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i bought kel's gift already, with angie. Stupid brian din come along luh. i really hope kel will like it and wear it though its like a simple gift. we really had a hard time deciding the size ley. asked brian and he says his is uk 7/8 and Roy said his was usa 9/10. you see, diff size one.so we bought one of each. very smart huh. LOL.
and i wonder how cartel will survive without all the usual morning crew working. heh.

enlightened somehow or rather, im waking up to the truth.
i was warned by someone long ago, but i ignored. Now, i do see what his point was.and i told him i finally agree with him. and he got so proud of it luhhhhhhh. one idiot. hahaha.:P

i think what kel said make whole lot of sense too. so if he is happily carrying on his life with someone whom he feels is better, then i should be happy for him and carry on mine too. and i feel assured because of kel eh, that nt all guys are bastard creatures, he is super nice to his gf can. (like how he request to off work earlier to surprise his gf and how he rushed me anxiously when we were taking the train cos i was taking my own sweet time. :x)
kay, i just have to get over the whole thing. but its such pity, so much of being friends luh. i dont even think we act like good friends now, though you use to say i am the friend you trust most. real pity.


p/s: im needed to go to the dentist soon. sth major happened to my tooth. ):
blame it on the sweets Elvin gave me which was a treat by kel to him.

p.p/s: i don't like similar names cos i get mixed up very often even though i categorize them already.
but but sometimes when #roy and Roy, #Elvin and Alvin msges at the same time, i still get mixed up and i sent the wrong msges. tsk.
(fyi, # is cartel peeps)

Never thought it'd catch me

Never thought it'd cost me
Never thought it'd hurt me
Never thought I'd fall in love
But I did.

i think this whole post wouldn't make any sense la, i was multitasking and it took me an hour to finish it. HAH!

you're on my heart. just like a tatoo.
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work later, am so not looking forward to it. i have been saying i wna quit cartel since eons ago
but i never did. i lack the determination to make myself quit. i think im nowhere near decisive
though. Now, cynthia just asked me if i wanna work at andersons. i got tempted, to be true.
but there like so many things that im considering. even though i always say that i dont like working,
but ultimately, there are still some nice colleagues there. and its the fact that we are getting better,
as time goes. (i mean kel invited me to his party (: )

but i got to think for the long run too. cartel can bearly feed me judging now. i need more long
shifts, like what andersons provide and not like cartel ( like cutting my 7 hr cashier shift to only 5 hrs) which wil bring me to more income.

that why im considering. i want a change of environment!


i dont understand why are there only two sexes on earth and that why we we attrcted to the
opposite. i sometimes think guys are just assholes that come to this world to torture the girls.
i know i shouldnt think this way, but i cant help to. maybe they should let us know what they are
thinking
like
what do they do to forget someone after a breakup ( cos they recover damn fast)
what makes them get into relationships so easily
why do they always nt meant what they say

i have lotsa queries, but most imptly i want to know
what are you thinking, what have you been doing, do you still go to soccer, are you enlisted soon,
is that girl your girlf and above all that, why are you not like how you used to be.

you still run through my mind like nobody's business but i know its nt the other way.
sometime i feel tht im such a big loser. yes, L O S E R.

nuf said, i dnt think nayone will get my point.
i think maybe im locking this blog, either that or i'll change to another url without anyone knowing.
but i think i might miss out on alot of silent readers( i know there are many out there hor) though
the tagboard doesnt prove so la. LOL.
okay, its just a MAYBE.

good night. i hope i can sleep well w/o thinking alot.


p/s: alvin just offered me a tuition job that sounds good too. now i got 2 options. how nice. hehe. :D

you still stand a place in my mind.
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i should be doing my retail project now, i should be. but i cant continue now, somehow.
i really detest the thg in me called, curiousity. why in the world did i click onto it. why why?
it made me so miserable to even read the first and of all times, my curosity had to come in
and play a part, to make me read on. Now im on the verge of breaking down already.

i deserve it, dnt i. trying to find out sth that was nt supposed to be known, i deserve all that
melancholy that i feel now. but i dont know why im feeling this way, it shouldnt have affected
me, but it did, deeply. perhaps i was just trying to compress all that feelings, so hard that i needed
a breakaway like that. i guess i have never gotten over it, never, not a bit.

and i wondered, what is it that make you had the capability to do that. 2 minds, you know.
maybe it was never on your mind, but it constantly is on ours, no matter how hard we try to hide it.

its getting harder, each time when i thought i suceeded, but i never did.

tell me how, tell me how.
its is killin me, seriously. it sucks max.

This is my now.
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i frown whenever i reach home looking at my lappy, figuring out what needs to be done,
from the piling project guidelines, trying to start off somewhere but yet not knowing how to.
i frown, i seriously do.

and i bought many many chocolates and tubs of choco icecreams to make myself happier.
but its so much of a sin to consume these, in the middle of the night especially.
oh man, i seriously need to come up with a concrete plan to help myself lose weight,
or at the very least, stop myself from gaining. ):
concrete plans, and start doing it, yes, start. one step at a time.

TAN PEI NI, YOU BETTER START LOSING SOME FATS OFF YOU AND START SAVING UP!
if not you going to be a screwed up poor swine. fuck that!

bye.

Battlefield
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finance down, as in my part of the proj. managed to finish it within the day.
major satisfied. :D:D:D

and how more stupid can i get, how more.
i did my law proj on thurs and i happily thought i've finished it.
later then i realised i din save it and i had to redo it. wtf. -.-
but its fine, i finished it just couple minutes ago again.

on top of that, i cut myself when i wanted to cut the apple to eat, again. YES, again!
like how many times already. how more klutzy can i get. tsk.

and i keep seeing ppl say on their blog they cant upload pictures and stuff, now that i
tried to upload one today, i realise i really cant. =x

working later tonight, oh, i totally dont want to but since i've agreed, i needed to go.
ciaos.


good day. (:

im gonna get you hell
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all the projects are taking its toll on me. one more week of holidays isnt any appealing.
home-based learning everyday is a chore. i rather go to school now. ):

Business Finance proj
Retail Proj
Busines law proj
Marketing proj
Family and youth proj x2 (two projs)
ICTS tutorial
finance tutorial
marketing tutorial

you see what i mean.

worse is finance proj. its due on mon and we hvn started anything yet. yes, nothing.
and no one in our grp knows how to do it. oh well, flunk it or whatever.


off to do my work. ):