You're the voice I hear inside my head.


supper has been niceeeeeee. (:
but its going to mutiply my fats. damnit. LOL.

anddd split shift kills me. it makes me damn tired at the end of the shift.
and whats good is that next week, i got 2 consecutive days of split shifts.
how good is that man. :O

im f.tired now.
good night!

i think im getting better at it.

some more time and i'll be even better.

but somehow i dont wish to move on,

just wanna stay in those memories.

gimme gimme gimme more.


life havent been at its best for me for the past week.
icas and icas are stressing me inside out esp when i spent my days haphazardly.
my stomach caused a topsy-turvy out of me ytd, causing me to miss the nice supper and the promise to go online. I'mma so sorry. ):
plus these few days of sleep deprivation is causing the hell out of me.
i am so so tired and i want more sleep, more, much much more.
(oh ya, i need to thank Mr lee for letting me sleep in his class and nt waking me up when he knew that i have spent my night watching soccer.heh. (: )

there are like 5 icas and proj going on next week. i really wonder how i am going to survive through them. tsktsktsk. i want a breakway from schwork soon!

im like staring blankly at my desktop screen for the past 15 mins.
i think its the message that my body system gives out to tell me to go to bed ASAP.
its alr 5mins before 2am and im working morning shift tmr.
screw me.

goodnight!

FULL TIME! BARCELONA ARE THE CHAMPIONS OF EUROPE!


"Tot el camp
és un clam
som la gent blaugrana
Tant se val d'on venim
si del sud o del nord... Read More
ara estem d'acord, ara estem d'acord,
una bandera ens agermana.
Blaugrana al vent
un crit valent
tenim un nom el sap tothom:
Barça, Barça, Baaarça!

Jugadors, seguidors,
tots units fem força.
Son molt anys plens d'afanys,
son molts gols que hem cridat
i s'ha demostrat, i s'ha demostrat,
que mai ningu no ens podrà torcer.
Blaugrana al vent
un crit valent
tenim un nom el sap tothom:
Barça, Barça, Baaarça!"

VERY VERY NICE MATCH!
totally worth sacrificing my beauty sleep over it. heh. (:

REJOICE ALL BARCA FANS! (((((((((((((((((:

champion league.

its only he 71st min of the game, but i can hear the hearts of all the man utd fns crushing.
its 2-0 now.
i can forsee the UEFA CHAPMPIONSHIP GOES TO BARCELONA!
WHOOOOOHOOOO!
NICE NICE HEADBALL BY LIONEL MESSI!

CHEERS!

start of something new.

i think i am starting to resent going to school.
oh no. hmmm.
maybe partially due sch starting at freaking 8am.

anw im like currently in love with a chinese song. it isnt a new song but the lyrics captivates me many many.

"我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你,苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起. "

how nice nice nice lyrics.
btw its a song by Guo Jing called 我不想忘记你.


1.30am now. only 5hrs left to sleep.
goodnight!

i have never regretted anything, from the start till now.
but just walk away,

oh dont look back.

cause if my heart breaks, its going to hurt so bad.

you know im strong but i cant take that,

before its too late, just walk away.

its like catching lighting, the chances of finding someone like you.


i should be studying for my EFMA ica tmr since im up at this hour.
but im watching HSM. yes, its High School Musical.
dont blame me, i just got the sudden urge to watch it. HEH.

and now im so screwed for tmr's ica. ha, whats wrong with that urge man. bleh.



i hope its a good day tmr. ( i mean later.)
oh, 3.05 a.m now. good night people!

it just got to get better.


work makes me go all-so-feeble that i cant even stand or walk properly. ):
and i only got one day to make it all better.
while my legs are stressing me physically, the coming ICAs are stessin' me mentally,
inside out. damn.

i need to find a way to keep myself out of those stress.

but on a side note, i have been changing my opinions on some co-workers (esp 1) which i used to nt like them so much. but they are nice nice people afterall. Its my misconception, this time round. HEH.

self-consolation, learnt from someone. nice one, i like. hehe.(:


its all gettin' better, aint it?

i wish that i could find the words to say.


damn, im so screwed for my ICTS test despite my very last minute revision ytd night.
but thankfully its finally over.
and last minute revision contributes further to sleep deprivation so im f.tired now. :@

had an arguement with mommy just now on sth minor, and thinking back now,
i think i was pretty rude to her. and to dad and sis also when they tried to be the mediator.
i know things will be okay by tmr morning but still, i needed to say,
im sorry, mommy, daddy and Pei Yi. you guys are very much loved. HEH.



gdbye. off to watch my show.

every night, i try to sleep

but the clock is always stuck on thoughts of you and me.

A thousand more thoughts and pinings comes unraveling,

and you are the inhibition that i need to overcome.

but i cant seem to do it.

Pei Ni, its time to wake up from your fantasy.

but it dont matter.

oh damn. im now my nerves now cause i dont know access but im having a test tmr.
arhhhh, i wonder who invented access ah. make me so pathetic now. TSK!
i was damn lousy at it la. IT stuffs are seriously not my kind of thing.
no matter how hard i tried to look at it, it just looked greek to me. :@

but friends were nice nice nice, be it trying to help or cheer me up.
THANK YOU MANY MANY MANY! (:

i realised, its a want and also a need.

ineedyoutobehere.

just beat it, beat it.


i think i need to instill more self-discipline.
damn, i aint getting anywhr. Biz Finance, EFMA, ICTS are getting the whole lot of hell out of me.
those figures kills. i swear. :@



and the figures on my weighing scale is increasing.
oh noooo. GO FATS, GOGO!

this is TPN soccer news.

-freshly crowned BPL champions.

im not a Man Utd fan. ( This is for those who doesnt read my blog often.)

and i have no intentions to switch my stand of supporting Arsenal.

i believe Arsenal has got the potential.

- potential next-to-be champions. (heh.)

they are so many rummours flying all ard abt transfering of players btwn clubs.
Ronaldo, tevez, fabregas, and even the new FWA footballer of the year, steven
gerrard is rummoured to be negotiating to be tranferred to real madrid.

OMG!

you're the only one i wished i could forget.

all my heartfelt blessings to the newly wed. (:
everything was great today, from the couple to the food.
all were nice nice nice. esp the red wine.
i think i had too much of a drop just now. my face was buring red la.
hehehe.

anw Arsenal drew with Man utd just now. SIAN! tsk.

great day, overall.

thats the way it has to be, everything proper.

i guessed i underestimated the strength of what love can bring, back then.
and each time at the topic, it always gets so controversial. but looking at
how my girlf is falling uncontrollably in love now, i realised its inevitability.
It never fails to amaze me, what love can do.

and tmr, im going to witness another fairytale come true at cousin's wedding.
in within less than 20 years of her life, she found the man for her. how nicee!
and baby is gonna join them in couple months due. how sweet to start the new
chapter of your life this way. (:


and now, i believe somewhere, someday, somehow, the fairytale is going to
happen on me too.

the power of ♥.


xoxo.

stand by me.


its nice to have friends that have the same interest with or even better, to make friends through it.
soccer is a great sport, dont you think. hehehe.
had great time recently talking all abt soccer stuffs with different people, and deciding wad to bet on.
(it made me remind of those quality times used to have. )

the most oh-so-damn-wooha news is probably C.RONALDO TRANSFERING TO REAL MADRID!
i realised not many people know about it yet, and its yet been confirmed. but i think its gg to true la, since Ronaldo has been wanting to go Real Madrid. Pretty bad news for Man Utd fans ah.

HAHAHAHAHA!



ICTS test tmr, i think i'll probably fail AGAIN.
meeting Liting for breakfast tmr and it means i have to wake up at 6plus.
1.45 now. good night.





i still miss those times most.

never ever never ever.


1. i paid attention to EFMA and BizFinance class today okay. *proud grins*
2. but the damn thing is i dont understands a thg.
3. National Education (NE) bores me to sleep, however imma looking forward to the tekong trip. hehe.
4. watching Man Utd and Wigan match later.
5. trying hard to be on diet right now, trying hard, esp when its without anyone to help or remind me.
6. i hvn had adequate rest this week, but im nt tired.
7. im broke.
8. and im loving my insomnia playlist more each night. hehe.
9. i hope that there are some late sleepers out there also to chat with me. hahaha.
10. and CHRISTIANO RONALDO IS GOING TO TRANSFER TO REAL MADRID! OMG LA!

randomness in me today.

gotto know the enemy.


Young Lions lost terribly today. 5 to nil la.
btw im not a fan of YL okay. LOL.

anw my betting fetish is back again, but im broke for the month already.
and dad's incident made me lose all the confidence.
but nonetheless, im going to bet on coming weekends matches. heh.
okay, i just realised i sounded so contradicting.
i hope i win the lottery, or better still if the money could just appear in my bank acc.
i wished ah, hahahahahahaha!

on the brighter note, a talk once in a while with some friends is good. feeling great and i cant stop laughing at my lappy screen like some mad girl. hehe.


2.15am, and im in for 8am lessons.
nice night.

what's worth the price is always worth the fight.


my mistake, but dad paid a heavy price for it instead.
i know its my bad, i know.
im so sorry.

thankful for all that is done.
♥ my family, so much.



till, later. (:

I aint never been afraid.

i kinda made daddy quit betting.(i meant in a bad way ):)
and the feeling is so perplexing.
im feeling so guilty now and yet ironically, eased.
dad dint even breathe a word, not to mention to blame me.
thankyou daddy.

on another note,i dont like working now, so much.
and i wanna get rid the habit of being so accident-proned.
how careless, as always. damn.
i hate those bruises here and there, like how much i dislike those nasty co-workers.
tsk, i must have sounded so anti-socialistic and victimised.
but ah, who cares, anyway. HEHE.


i know i hvnt been perfect, or anywhere near, but i am who i am, and will always be.
imma happy girl, trying hard to be contented with whatever i have now so to be at my best. heh. (:

im in for sch tmr and its 3.15 now. so screwed.
gd nighty!

So prove yourself to me i'm the girl that you claim.

pre-Mother's day celebrations at gramps was good, though i was sticking with daddy throughout. the talk with dad on the way back, made many things much apparent. be it school, r/s or whatever
that was taking its toll on me previously.
cousin's girlf was the only turnoff tonight, but somehow i attained sth that i was trying to apprehend, all along. with the help or dad and mummy, of course, through all those reasonings they were trying to instill in me.
i guess things are more explicit to me now.

good thing, way too good, definately. (:

going 18, still a girl of fatuity, but a contented one.

and indeed like how someone used to say, it all in the mind. HEH.

xoxo.

i wanna do something you cant imagine.

When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away

So I try to find the words that I could say

I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away

And I can't lie

im oh-so-damn-freaking-tired,

till the stage that it affects my mood that im throwin my temper to everyone at home.

and thanks for my very accomodating parents and sisters who have been trying to cheer me up. (:

on a lighter note, barcelona won and im pretty happy about that. i rather they win the league. hehehe.

TGIF!

cause the world keeps turning.

You're everything i thought you never were

And nothing like i thought you could have been.

But still you live inside of me.

so tell me how is that.

i prefer things to remain in its ambiguous state.

at least there leaves room for fantasies. heh.

♥ ♥ ♥

i know i'll be there at the end of the day.

Oh damn it. Guess what?

ARSENAL LOST AGAIN! ))):

im so saddd. i lost my beauty sleep to watch them losing. tskkkkkk.
now im having headache.
but i think is because of business finance.
its really killing my brain cells away.
but the good thing is, lessons ends at 12. WHEE!
and im not staying back for SBM phototaking which means i can go home early. WHEEWHEE!

hahahahahahahahahaha!

ps. im still very unhappy about Ars's lost, esp when i see Man U fans gloating. bleh.



i can hear my stomach growling alr.
i need some glucose right now.
:

Arsenal is the dope.

im not feeling too well nowww.
stomach feels kinda weird and my old ailment acted up as well, at such a bad timing.
i hope to catch Arsenal's match with Manchester United this time round.
the full 90/90++ minutes. cos i din managed to the previous time.

im hoping Ars dont disappoint me again ah.
if not i would have wasted my beauty sleep instead. hahahaha! (:


k, shall update when the match ends.
i pray for good news later. whee!


to sidetrack a little, Business Finance kills me. argh.


GOGOGOGOAL! heh. fantasizing a little in adv.

you tryna get it did, just know i gets it done.


1. imma so damn broke.
2. had talks with Too liting after lessons.
3. thereafter, i think i have the cut to be a councillor. HAHAHA!
4. which led me to missing the rainbow.
5. i've just decided not to work next week.
6. my knee's old ailment acted up. damn.
7. im still deciding to go to SBM tmr or not.
8. im so very hungry nowww.
9. and im craving for some chocolate cake or icecream.
10. i wouldnt say it here. :P

till later.
goodbye.

it's a roller coaster kind of rush.

i can feel the adrenaline moving through my veins for that short few minutes.

and i guess i know why.

i thought it should be fading away, when its supposed to.

but apparently, it not.

my mind was kept preoccupied for the past week, dreamily.

with so much things that i fantasized.

too much of unrealistic thoughts that never ever will come true.

but still im thankful for all the fantasies that kept me hopeful, giving me sth to look forward to.

and it has become the source of my mood already. heh.

with the residuals of gentleness that is left, im treasuring it with all my might.

at least i've got sth to recall back on, recollections.

♥


with love,
gd night.

so tell me how is that.

work was rather easy today.
just kinda awkward to be stuck in that predicament.
btw a new drink was invented by brian and yoges today and it turned out pretty good.
they are still into improving it.
HAHAHA!

anw end of the long weekend break and its a sch day tmr.
damn, there is nth that is motivating me to go. tsk.
aches all over are killin, and how much i wish for jacuzzi now. LOL.

no jacuzzi for me,
so i think i would be better off sleeping. hahaha!
gd night everyone.

you're not sorry.

my mind gets controversial each time i consider job quitting.
i never can get firm enough to reach a decision. darn it.
and tonight, im struggling, yet again. and till now, a decision hasnt been made.
i dislike working with some people.
(namely the more senior staffs which are back again. TSK!)
i may sound anti-social or whatsoever you call that to be.
but i just dont like.
and i grieve for other co-workers that receives the same pay.
easy money just to stand at the door.
and why cant she do her job to close the alfresco when many others females can.
im so pissed.
ah, fuck it. why get so disturbed by it. LOL.
im just supposed to do my job.
so Pei Ni, dont bother. just do your own stuffs okay. heh.

on a lighter note, im thankful for the nice-coworkers i had today.
namely kelvin and haitang. (:


good night.

imma trapped within your embrace.

monotonous week.
that only difference, makes such a big difference.
its the little things you do in life to make a smile in ppl's life.
so true for my case here.

and, boredom is killing me.
where is my fav joke? ):
plus the internet doesnt seem to interest me anymore. damn it.


and everytime i looked, i wished it was you.